Sunday, August 15, 2004
two days
Well I had my going away party yesterday... it was sad... having to say goodbye to people that influenced my life.... time to grow up..... crazy.... 2 people didnt come that I wanted to say goodbye to.... one... she didnt pass her driving test and was too embarresed to see people... that sucked... It was the last time I would have gotten to see her and instead of saying goodbye she had a pitty party... well lets just say I gave her a piece of my mind.. haha... the other... I knew he wouldnt come... I was just hoping... ya know... that kind of thing well I am packing my room up... looking at pictures I want to take.... crazy how time flys.... I miss Andrew.. hes in Az right now... I dont know when he is coming home... but im leaving... depressing... I am going to miss all my friends.... At my party I looked around and realized that these people cared enough about me to come and say goodbye and they all gave me a big hug It just shows whos a good friend and who are to self involved to care.... Talked to someone about there BF I hope they break up.... he controls her WAY to much... and she sees it but wont do anything about it.... I hate that... well I have to go pack... Peace
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Friday, August 13, 2004
zupergurly: hey!
Bucky141: hey whats going on?
zupergurly: meh nm i'm bored
zupergurly: how about urself?
Bucky141: bored... hahaha just got back from a movie with my girls haha
zupergurly: awe what did u see?
Bucky141: the notebook... depressing...
zupergurly: i heard that it was really good
zupergurly: almost everyone that i have heard that has seen it has cried
Bucky141: ya it was but if your trying to get over someone ... no
zupergurly: i understand that
Bucky141: i didnt actually... it takes a lot for me to cry though
zupergurly: same here
zupergurly: although i did the other night
Bucky141: about??
zupergurly: well i finally came to the realization about how much i cared about someone and now he's gone
Bucky141: im sorry....
zupergurly: everything was finally perfect between us and now we are separated by college
zupergurly: dont feel bad, its just the way things are
zupergurly: we'll meet plenty of boys and we'll have plenty of fun lol
Bucky141: hahahah oh yeah i cant wait....!!!!
My roommate is the coolest person alive!!! I cant wait to see her yaa less than a week!!! come by and say goodbye......
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Bucky141: hey whats going on?
zupergurly: meh nm i'm bored
zupergurly: how about urself?
Bucky141: bored... hahaha just got back from a movie with my girls haha
zupergurly: awe what did u see?
Bucky141: the notebook... depressing...
zupergurly: i heard that it was really good
zupergurly: almost everyone that i have heard that has seen it has cried
Bucky141: ya it was but if your trying to get over someone ... no
zupergurly: i understand that
Bucky141: i didnt actually... it takes a lot for me to cry though
zupergurly: same here
zupergurly: although i did the other night
Bucky141: about??
zupergurly: well i finally came to the realization about how much i cared about someone and now he's gone
Bucky141: im sorry....
zupergurly: everything was finally perfect between us and now we are separated by college
zupergurly: dont feel bad, its just the way things are
zupergurly: we'll meet plenty of boys and we'll have plenty of fun lol
Bucky141: hahahah oh yeah i cant wait....!!!!
My roommate is the coolest person alive!!! I cant wait to see her yaa less than a week!!! come by and say goodbye......
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
Still holding out for you.....
Never thought I'd be in this place
Someone else's life I'm living
Wish I were living a lie
The hardest part is when the bow breaks
Falling down and then forgiving
You didn't kiss me goodbye
I'm choking on the words I didn't get to say
And pray I get the chance one day
I still run I still swing open the door
I still think you'll be there like before
Doesn't everybody out there know to never come round
Some things a heart wont listen to
I'm still holding out for you
I can here you smile dark
I can even feel you breathing
But day light chases the ghost
I see your coat and I fall apart
To those hint of you I'm clinging
Nows when I need them most
I should get up dry my eyes and move ahead
And least that's what he would have said
I still run
I still swing open the door
I still think you'll be there like before
Doesn't everybody out there know to never come round
Some things a heart wont listen to
I'm still holding out for you
Faithfully I trace your name while you sleep
Its the only true comfort I feel
I still run
I still swing open the door
I still think you'll be there like before
Doesn't everybody out there know to never come round
Some things a heart wont listen to
I'm still holding out for you
Someone else's life I'm living
Wish I were living a lie
The hardest part is when the bow breaks
Falling down and then forgiving
You didn't kiss me goodbye
I'm choking on the words I didn't get to say
And pray I get the chance one day
I still run I still swing open the door
I still think you'll be there like before
Doesn't everybody out there know to never come round
Some things a heart wont listen to
I'm still holding out for you
I can here you smile dark
I can even feel you breathing
But day light chases the ghost
I see your coat and I fall apart
To those hint of you I'm clinging
Nows when I need them most
I should get up dry my eyes and move ahead
And least that's what he would have said
I still run
I still swing open the door
I still think you'll be there like before
Doesn't everybody out there know to never come round
Some things a heart wont listen to
I'm still holding out for you
Faithfully I trace your name while you sleep
Its the only true comfort I feel
I still run
I still swing open the door
I still think you'll be there like before
Doesn't everybody out there know to never come round
Some things a heart wont listen to
I'm still holding out for you
~SHeDAISY~
Saturday, August 07, 2004
Have you ever:
1. Been kissed: yea
2. Eaten sushi: love it
3. Gotten hyper: yes, who doesnt
4. Been dumped: no
5. Eaten an entire pizza by yourself: haha no But that would be an accomplishment
6. Been a rebel: kinda not that bad.... yet
8. Gotten in a car accident: yes alli was with me on that one
9. ever liked someone older: I dont dig younger guys
10. Seen the white house: yea
11. Hiked a mountain: yes... wasnt to impressed
12 Stayed home on a Saturday/Friday night just for the fun of it: ya
13. Been in love: no.... Wish i was
14. Made home made cookies (from scratch): watched someone hahaaha
15. Cold or hot: cold, to bundle up...
16. lace or satin: satin oh baby!!!
17. New or old: have to go with the old
18. Roses or daises: roses... pink or red!!
19. Chocolate or Vanilla ice cream: Chocolate!!!
21. Science or history: History
22. Do you like some one right now: not really to scared.... dont want to get hurt again
23. Do you have a secret crush: nope
GIRLS:
24. What do you like in boys: funny... interesting... a gentleman
25. In shape & muscular or not: in shape i cant be in better shape than him....
26. Do you want a guy to ask your dad before he asks you out: not to ask me out
27. Do you want your b/f to get you chocolate or jewelry: hugs
GUYS:
28. What do you like in girls:
29. Athletic or not:
30. Hard to get or easy:
31. Who do you want to kiss right now:
FRIENDS:
32. Who is your funniest friend:Jess, Jenn Jordan and Katie Z
33. Who do you email the most: I don't really email
34. Know the best: Jess and shalayna
35. The coolest friend: Jess and Andrew
36. The most trustworthy: Andrew... Katie Zand shalayna
IN THE LAST 48 HOURS:
37. Had a serious talk: nope
38. Hugged someone: lots of people
39. Got along with your parents: yes, i love them
40. Got along with your siblings: I love them
41. Fought with a friend: not fight but gotten mad at him
42. Been depressed: yea....
DO YOU LIKE TO:
43. Walk in the Rain: Id rather dance
44. Give hugs: i do!!
OTHER STUFF:
45. Ever had that falling dream: yes, many times
46. What turns you on: and smile that makes the whole face smile
47. What turns you off: throw up hahaha
48. What do you dream about?: love
49. Who is your favorite cartoon character?: Ariel... Little Mermaid...
50. Do your parents ever make you mad: yes
51. What is your favorite saying?: RICK JAMES BITCH.... DIG IN!!!
52. What's your favorite phrase or word?: BITCH
FINALLY:
53. Your name: Sharleanna Noel Richardson
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1. Been kissed: yea
2. Eaten sushi: love it
3. Gotten hyper: yes, who doesnt
4. Been dumped: no
5. Eaten an entire pizza by yourself: haha no But that would be an accomplishment
6. Been a rebel: kinda not that bad.... yet
8. Gotten in a car accident: yes alli was with me on that one
9. ever liked someone older: I dont dig younger guys
10. Seen the white house: yea
11. Hiked a mountain: yes... wasnt to impressed
12 Stayed home on a Saturday/Friday night just for the fun of it: ya
13. Been in love: no.... Wish i was
14. Made home made cookies (from scratch): watched someone hahaaha
15. Cold or hot: cold, to bundle up...
16. lace or satin: satin oh baby!!!
17. New or old: have to go with the old
18. Roses or daises: roses... pink or red!!
19. Chocolate or Vanilla ice cream: Chocolate!!!
21. Science or history: History
22. Do you like some one right now: not really to scared.... dont want to get hurt again
23. Do you have a secret crush: nope
GIRLS:
24. What do you like in boys: funny... interesting... a gentleman
25. In shape & muscular or not: in shape i cant be in better shape than him....
26. Do you want a guy to ask your dad before he asks you out: not to ask me out
27. Do you want your b/f to get you chocolate or jewelry: hugs
GUYS:
28. What do you like in girls:
29. Athletic or not:
30. Hard to get or easy:
31. Who do you want to kiss right now:
FRIENDS:
32. Who is your funniest friend:Jess, Jenn Jordan and Katie Z
33. Who do you email the most: I don't really email
34. Know the best: Jess and shalayna
35. The coolest friend: Jess and Andrew
36. The most trustworthy: Andrew... Katie Zand shalayna
IN THE LAST 48 HOURS:
37. Had a serious talk: nope
38. Hugged someone: lots of people
39. Got along with your parents: yes, i love them
40. Got along with your siblings: I love them
41. Fought with a friend: not fight but gotten mad at him
42. Been depressed: yea....
DO YOU LIKE TO:
43. Walk in the Rain: Id rather dance
44. Give hugs: i do!!
OTHER STUFF:
45. Ever had that falling dream: yes, many times
46. What turns you on: and smile that makes the whole face smile
47. What turns you off: throw up hahaha
48. What do you dream about?: love
49. Who is your favorite cartoon character?: Ariel... Little Mermaid...
50. Do your parents ever make you mad: yes
51. What is your favorite saying?: RICK JAMES BITCH.... DIG IN!!!
52. What's your favorite phrase or word?: BITCH
FINALLY:
53. Your name: Sharleanna Noel Richardson
Saturday, July 31, 2004
Goodbye.....
So I think I have come a point in my life that I see all the people that I went to high school with and even though we had good times I dont care if I ever see some of them again... At this age they all use you.... drinking... some place to go late at night... someone to cuddle with when you have no one... but once something happens they stop talking to you... It sucks... I have realized that the people that are around right now are the people that care.... If they stop talking to me then o well.... People in Simi are so fake and use people.... I hate that... I wish that things were different but I know once I move people will stop talking to me all together.... and that is perfectly fine with me.... I would be fine not seeing some people ever again.... But there are a lot of people that are genuine and sincere... and I will miss them so much... I dont know its scary... I am leaving in about 2 weeks.... And I wont be able to go to the pool and see everyone.... I wont have a curfew.... I wont have to check in... crazy.... Well going out tonight with Gabe and Andrew.... The two greatest guys in the world.... Its so nice not having to worry about someone liking someone.... we are all cousins so we dont have to worry... and I love getting a guys point of view on things....well peace
PS fuck you Patrick!
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PS fuck you Patrick!
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
Same shit different day...
wow san Francisco was SO amazing.... I don't really want to write about it because I think it might ruin the memory... If that makes sense.... I have had a lot on my mind lately.... People.... Like someone who I used to be really close with changed SO much because of someone else.... Never thought that would happen.. Hope they wise up soon.... Then there's someone that I care about but don't want to really start anything because in less than a month I am gone... From this tiny horrible town.... But in the same breath I want to spend every moment with him... He's that amazing... Like he just texted me I am sorry that I didn't get a chance to call you yesterday.... I used to think that all guys were the same but he's so different... Old fashioned... Opens doors for me.... he calls just to say hi.... He's awesome.... But I don't want to leave and have someone here.... I was to have fun in college be wild and crazy.... You know??? Then there is this other guy who wont leave me alone... Like I try to give him hints but NOOO he wont leave me alone!!! ahhhh texts me all the time.... Don't like him at all!!!! I guess the ones you want are always the ones that are so weird!! haha well I must go parents are going away for 10 days woo hoo!!! Peace
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Tuesday, July 20, 2004
Random thoughts
Well I dont know what I feel now... Im so scared to leave... So many people that I dont want to say goodbye to.... I am writting letters to the people that I care about and saying goodbye that way... I wrote him a letter... I am so scared to give it to him... Not because I still like him but just because.. Ya know? I didnt write it to hurt him in anyway but just to tell him how I feel... Crazy how much people change right before your eyes.....
watched How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days... made me feel lonely and wanting a relationship..... a GOOD one....
I talked to my cousin about his girlfriend... they are so young... and make so many mistakes yet they still love eachother so much.... I wish I had that .... then other times I totally love being single....
Leaving for san francisco in a day.... I am so excited.... Just me.... jess.... and the road.... Oh and many gay guys that can be our best friend yaaa hahahaha....
Sometimes I wish I didnt choose a school so far away I made the drive this weekend.... Long... but not too bad....
This guy keeps calling me ... I feel bad cuz he likes me and I really dont like him.... and I am trying to give him the hint but he doesnt get it...
I saw someone today... they changed a lot... I think for someone else.... Hope they wise up soon.... hate seeing things like that... controlling...
wow I just read what I wrote that is random hahaha.... well my love I have to go start packing.... goodnight... Oh and if you want to sweep me off my feet and fall head over heels in love with me....tell me and we can see what we can work out... or if you are gay and want a best friend im down!!!! hahaha nighty night
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watched How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days... made me feel lonely and wanting a relationship..... a GOOD one....
I talked to my cousin about his girlfriend... they are so young... and make so many mistakes yet they still love eachother so much.... I wish I had that .... then other times I totally love being single....
Leaving for san francisco in a day.... I am so excited.... Just me.... jess.... and the road.... Oh and many gay guys that can be our best friend yaaa hahahaha....
Sometimes I wish I didnt choose a school so far away I made the drive this weekend.... Long... but not too bad....
This guy keeps calling me ... I feel bad cuz he likes me and I really dont like him.... and I am trying to give him the hint but he doesnt get it...
I saw someone today... they changed a lot... I think for someone else.... Hope they wise up soon.... hate seeing things like that... controlling...
wow I just read what I wrote that is random hahaha.... well my love I have to go start packing.... goodnight... Oh and if you want to sweep me off my feet and fall head over heels in love with me....tell me and we can see what we can work out... or if you are gay and want a best friend im down!!!! hahaha nighty night